Been awhile since I've dropped anything in here, but this is really pissing me off.
Last year I accumulated roughly 8,000 dollars worth of debt, and lost a decent job all within about a month. It was a really plopsty, and partially self created situation, but it happened. I scraped by and survived long enough to get my plops together and get away from a bad situation and come to Colorado for school. The idea being that I could get an education, and be healthier both mentally and physically without all the influences and opportunities to indulge self destructive habits that I had back home.
Well, I managed to end up in the hospital up here in September for an injury, accumulated about 2000 more dollars worth of debt that I haven't been able to pay back, but I had a so-so job and was making the rent on time. So I'm doing alright until December when I landed in the hospital AGAIN for a prostate and kidney infection. I'm 20 years old!!! How does that even happen when I'm this young!?!? So anyways, I missed 5 weeks of work that i couldn't afford to miss, got my rent payed just barely and accumulated the late fees(still unpaid) that go with that and had to suffer through that infection over the holidays. Add in medical costs, and the medical costs I pay every month because I'm a diabetic, and I was feeling worthless, helpless, and hopeless.
With a little support I managed to survive and make it back to work, I'm off the temporary meds, and I've got enough diabetic supplies for a while. While my health is looking up, my situation isn't. Already have about 10,000 dollars in debt and now the bills from the second hospital visit, various follow up appointments and hospital-related bills are coming in, already I'm at almost 2,500 dollars from those and I haven't even received the full bills, or the bill for my actual stay in the hospital. Plus my rent isn't paid and I've got late fees for this month too. Oh and while I can make the money for next month's rent, it'll be late, so more fees. At this moment I'm about 13,200 dollars in debt, before my actual student loans that I thankfully don't have to worry about yet.
Just to add icing to the cake of "I'm fluffed", Collegiate Housing Services(the company that manages my apartment and several others specifically for college students) is forcing me to move from my apartment to another apartment one building over for absolutely NO REASON, where not only will i be rooming with someone I can't STAND!!! but I will also have to train someone else to recognize the warning signs and help me out when my blood sugar is out of control. In my current apartment, I have a roommate who is trained(diabetics in family, was damned convenient) and is actually a good roommate, as well as a pretty good friend.
So, while I'm being fluffed by the medical community, working my plopsty part-time job and going to school, dealing with being a very sick diabetic, looking at being buried by bills that I can't pay, and being thrown out of a stable living situation into one that will likely lead to some old, bad habits, it's starting to seem like I'm going to end up on the same road I've been trying to get off of when I moved here. If that's gonna happen, I might as well just head on back home to the desert where at least it isn't cold, and I actually enjoy the company that hangs out with me while we drink ourselves to death.
Alright, I think that's it, at least in my own little world that's it. I can't handle big picture problems, or even see them, while I've got all of this in my face trying to suffocate me.