Well, this isn't a new subject. All I can say is to do, start over, but this time set the sitting higher. No grinding, NO retries, and keep it all VERY REALISTIC. You die, game over.
But maybe that is a little extreme? Then I might suggest reading some books, like… all of them. Or play a character who will not kill? Using Illusion to get through the game, well you do have to kill a dragon or two but that's because you have no other choice. You could go Healer? Heal your followers in battle and never fire or harm another living being… that's fun, and challenging. OH! Write your own song? Post it on here so we can sing of your glory… fun. Or I will tell you of mine and you can sing it while in battle? That's even better!!… Right?
But… who knows what the hell you have done and where you have been? I don't so I will tell you this, find your way into Cyrodiil. I have and it was a indeed a long journey. No joke. Get yourself to the White-gold Tower.
((TIP: Your journey will start at Arkwind (or Arcwind?) Point, then head South, obviously. But be sure you have your ghost shout (Ethernal? … I don't remember how to spell it but you will need it to survive)